Hope all of you have the opportunity to slap 2010 silly, pull 2010′s hair, and slap her on the ass…in other word take control of this year! hehe.

Take control of your time, don’t spend it loathing others even though they may have wronged you. Use your time to do something constructive, something creative maybe….As for me, I have recently found out what I wanted to do with my life, and how to do it. I am currently working full-time, and even though I don’t make astronomical amount of money, it’s a solid and honest paycheck. My current job is not too terribly hard, and it’s actually kinda fun. Also I feel it’s a fairly important job. It is healthcare related. I do find this humble job, important and fun. I am satisfied with the working part of my life, now I must satisfy my creative side of life.

My goal in the 2010, is to first of all, take care of my physical body. I have really abused my body for years. I don’t know why, maybe because I felt really bad about myself because of things I went though starting in 1999 to about 2003. Anyway, I was hateful, acidic and loathing. There was a point when I was just mentally out of it, and I could have done a few things I would have regretted. My mental strength though, was wearing thin, but I made it. People tore me down mentally and stripped from me my self-confidence. I built up my confidence like layers of skin, that have been damaged.

Anyway, I want to be confident, but not too confident in my life….and now I am fairly satisfied with my life and at ease. I want to be more positive in the years to come. The goal to satisfy my creative side, is to save up for an artistic loft, space in Chicagoland, one that I can have paid off lock stock and barrel. This place will have a space for a semi-professional photo studio. I want to start taking studio photographs of people, mostly women models. ;-) We shall see. This is my goal and dream. Simply to create lovely photographs. To create.