I wonder how many hours and miles I have spent in my car alone. I was starving..painfully for a relationship for many years. Then I met a woman. However that time and place has passed. I still drive by myself. Again though, I hunger for an emotional place with someone. However I don’t feel like I deserve it anymore. I found this out on the last relationship with this woman. Like a switch, I had problems actually giving out affection. I was very sincere and in my thoughts before I met her, I was soft and warm. For some reason, when I finally got close…I could not feel comfortable. It seems like I have been alone for such a long time, that I don’t know anything else. At times it’s hard and I feel like I am dying without having that special someone to be nice to. I believe there may be a “scientific” study that says a man who has a woman to love and do things for lives longer…not sure.